wo[man]

so i'm home quite a lot. and i managed to figure out how to use my TV tuner for my quad core desktop computer. however, i don't have cable, so i'm stuck with basic channels. and daytime TV kinda sucks, but i just have it on anyways, to just have some noise so i don't feel like my room is too empty during the day. so i end up half watching shows like "Home Improvement" and "King of Queens" (Yay Queens! the borough in NY...) so i'm doing my homework and watching this show, "Just Shoot Me," where David Spade is the only actor/actress i can recognize. though today Steve Carrell was on it, guest appearing. anyway. there was this one scene, and these three guys are all watching this really sappy movie and then saying things like, oh i wish society didn't pressure us to keep up this manly facade, and etc... then one of the guys says, i wish i was a woman. then of course the serious moment ends, they're all like OOOOOOHhhhhhhh k..... peace out.

of course its an odd thing to say. though there was that other time that i followed Chase to the Safe Zone lecture about gays/lesbians/trans for free food... bad experience, but they were explaining how there are people, Transsexuals who believe that they were born the wrong sex.

i'm not going to go as far as to say that i was born the wrong sex... i think that's absurd. God has his reasons for everything. however... there is part of me that says hm...

and so here are the reasons why sometimes i wish i was of the opposite gender.

-my first is if i had my current mind. basically, if i just switched my brain.
i get along so much better with girls. that having been said, i feel like if i were a girl too then it would allow for me to get closer to them, have them trust me more, hang out with them more, and even be able to mentor them, whatever. eveything more.
-i feel like it's always much easier to say that a girl is too good for a guy than vice versa.
-guys are the one that have to take the initiative. the only exception being a sadie hawkins. its so much easier to just reject and/or to accept, rather than try and figure out if you should do something. to try and read the girls mind and see if shes on the same page with you. and i suck at reading girls minds or taking initiative. i'm not the leading male that i'm supposed to be.
-if you're a girl that can do something, you're so much cooler than a guy who can. like girls who can play guitar are freaking awesome. whereas almost all guys are required to play guitar. girls who can play sports well are so much more noticed.

-its so much more fun to shop. girls get to wear guys clothes. some girls fit into even childrens clothes. they're cheaper too. so you have a wider variety. even more so with dresses, shoes, etc. ooooh man... i wish i could wear legwarmers, or those knits that have those ridiculously oversized collars, like the image on the side. or a shawl! or... so many other things guys can't wear... like cool socks... toe socks!

-i feel like i'd look more attractive as a girl. like, if you were to translate this over to girl, i feel like i just overall be more attractive. then again, this is kind of following my own taste, because im not into girls who are like, super stick skinny. so i'd be a hotter girl. in my eyes. i dont know if anyone will understand that one...

now, here are the reasons why i'm glad i'm a guy.
-if shopping had that much variety and was that much fun, i'd be so much more poor.
-all the biological reasons related to childbearing.
-i like girls. alot
-i like suits. alot

i think the girls side outweighs the guys side right now though... sad... i'm definitely not going to go as far as call myself a transsexual. no way. i know that i'm supposed to be a guy. i just kinda suck at it right now...